So it has been a month since i last updated this journal. A few reasons for that, the smallest one being that im lazy. This past month has been rather taxing on my.

I am still at my job and loving it, but it is when i have to come home that is the problem. The people that have been living with me have almost destroyed my patience, and that is a very hard thing to do. ANY other person would have booted them out months ago, but i am far too kind hearted. They use me, leach off me, are messy beyond belief, and owe me a massive amount of money. As it is, it looks like i will have to take out my investment portfolio that was given to me by my parents for my 21st, just to cover MY ass with the debts they have got me into. a port folio that was meant to remain in there for many, many years yet. All they do is whine and complain about being "victimized" by me, and quite frankly, i have had enough. So i have told them, Full Rent money and at least 1/2 bill payments are to be paid to me by end of week, or they start looking. I just cannot take the stress anymore. Though i must admit, i hope they fall through on payments, because i want to get rid of them. They are too unstable, and too inconsiderate.

As for art progress, refer to the above. My self-esteem and motivation are at an all time low. I am lacking in ideas, unwilling to work on unfinished pictures, and feeling on the verge of depression.

It is thanks to my roommates that i am completely broke. I don't even have money to buy food until 4 days time. I have already gone without food for 2 days. Looks like i will be losing weight faster than i thought.

speaking of which, i am past the 1/2 way mark, which seems to be one of three good things in my life. The other two go hand in hand and are the only thing stopping me from ripping my hair out and jumping in front of a bus. And to those two, I offer a deep heartfelt thankyou.

As for future plans, i am hoping to be out of this rut soon and feeling better enough to get back into my art. I have to head to the parents place for christmas, as the ENTIRE family will be there. Including the ones who moved overseas. which means gifts for 18 people... On top of that, I am looking at getting my motorbike licence for the simple fact that running a bike will save me a multitude of money. I only wish i had the money to spend on those i love.

Well, i have had me rant and it is time for me to go. Be safe all.

Wolfie